350!

Wow this is my 350th post! Its been almost a month since my last entry. Im losing interest in things again…I feel a breakdown on the horizon or at the very least a bad depression creeping in. So many contributing factors. My anxiety is getting the best of me lately. Anytime I leave the house […]

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299

Wheeeew what a day today was. This whole week has been a blur of depression anxiety ptsd etc…but today just when my depression is starting its upswing and my suicidal thoughts are becoming more passive, I had my intake evaluation for an IOP (intensive outpatient program) at the Acute Partial Hospital. There was so much […]

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264 day 3 of covid

Its day 3 of covid in the Jones household and I’m feeling like crap. Between the chest pain and throat pain, It feels like I chain smoked a pack of newports. Dr put me on a zpack and albuterol. Coughing is torture but other than that I feel ok. Oliver still feels good and Ollie […]

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263 covid day 2

Today was the 2nd day of covid at the Jones household. We had a scare that Ollie had it cuz he didn’t like anything he ate and he said he couldn’t smell anything. He took a nap and woke up fine with all senses back to normal. I have a slight sore throat….so slight its […]

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205 story time

It begins with a simple scroll down my newsfeed on facebook. Person A is my (maternal side) cousins gf/”baby mama”. Person B is my (paternal side) sister in law. After seeing these posts posted at the same time and knowing they all live in the same little town and their kids are the same age….I […]

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174

Mommy isn’t any better today. I actually got to speak with her instead of just text. She was telling me that she barely was able to stand for 5 minutes in the shower to rinse off. So we still don’t know when she will be coming out here for her trip. I hate that my […]

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172

Sadness sadness sadness….my mom is sick. She started with a fever the other day so she made an immediate appointment to get tested for covid. Her test came back negative but while she was driving home she got really sick and felt like she was going to pass out. She had to pull over and […]

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161 and the verdict is…..

Bare with me as I am typing this up on the mobile app using one hand… Went to the dr today for the pain in my thumb/wrist today as it feels broken. Now I know it’s not broken because there has been no trauma to it but it feels broken. Pain ranges from a 3 […]

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