350!

Wow this is my 350th post! Its been almost a month since my last entry. Im losing interest in things again…I feel a breakdown on the horizon or at the very least a bad depression creeping in. So many contributing factors. My anxiety is getting the best of me lately. Anytime I leave the house […]

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308

This morning I had interpersonal effectiveness DBT. We did a group activity in which I happily got all the answers right even volunteered my answer a few times. A few things I took away from today’s session were… 1. What we focus on can often make the pain worse. 2. When it comes to visions […]

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300!!!

Today I had a couple group therapy sessions. These take place on zoom and The first one this morning went well until the end. It was a DBT group, The topic was “interpersonal effectiveness,” which in a nutshell is getting our needs and wants met without negative effects to others. We also discussed the “5 […]

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299

Wheeeew what a day today was. This whole week has been a blur of depression anxiety ptsd etc…but today just when my depression is starting its upswing and my suicidal thoughts are becoming more passive, I had my intake evaluation for an IOP (intensive outpatient program) at the Acute Partial Hospital. There was so much […]

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236 mama bear storytime

Ok so the other day I mentioned how they were trying to kick Ollie out of school….here’s the story. On Saturday I received a letter from the school stating that since he has yet to receive his meningitis vaccine he won’t be allowed to participate in school or remote learning as of Monday. Now I […]

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235

So I just had a telehealth appointment with my psych. It went really well for the most part. she did switch one of my meds. I was taking welbutrin and it worked great on my depression, but lately my anxiety has been insane. Im talking panic attacks every other day/night. I have this irrational fear […]

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202, light therapy?

Well I tried the light for the light therapy. No improvement but Im not giving up yet. I get my abilify injection on Monday so hopefully that helps a bit. We went to the grocery store today with a weekly budget this week of 200$ the total came to $198.94!! I was stoked cuz we […]

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197

Let’s see. We got up early to start the day for Ollies first day of virtual learning for middle school. It went pretty well. Each class is only half an hour and each class today was spent taking attendance and going over the class rules/expectations. The schedule is a bit confusing but I think we […]

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165…I’ve figured it out

I’ve figured it out. The last couple weeks or so I’ve had all the signs that are typical for me, loss of interest, change in sleeping patterns, zoning out, irritability, suicidal thoughts, fatigue, feeling worthless etc. Then today it hit me full on. Depression is such a miserable bitch. I’ve already cried twice today and […]

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