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I’m in an alanon meeting right now and the topic for tonight’s meeting is commitment and I realize I have a problem with commitment. I always throw myself into everything full force and then give up after a short time….look how rarely I post here anymore. Anyways, I find it funny that the only thing […]

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We did some running around today which contributed to my step count for the day. We first ran to Dicks sporting goods for Oliver’s trip north this Saturday to the couple high end golf courses hes playing back to back. Then Oliver tried to be sweet and take me to the big 5 below a […]

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As much as I’ve tried not to give NoNo any attention, she is still irking me. she messaged me today but it was more her being nosey then it was genuine concern for the issues. We had a near disaster last night. I was doing laundry and the sink in my kitchen backed up halfway, […]

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We took the kids to Barnes and Noble today so they could get a special treat that they haven’t had in a very long time….blondie blasts from the cafe! There are plenty of recipes online to make them but I am not the baking type. I’ve reached a chapter in English with Ophion that I […]

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My mom is FINALLY starting to feel better. I was really worried about her. For her to say she is scared really had me feeling some type of way. My mom has been through her fair share of bs in life, probably more than I have and thats saying a lot. So she doesn’t need […]

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Mommy isn’t any better today. I actually got to speak with her instead of just text. She was telling me that she barely was able to stand for 5 minutes in the shower to rinse off. So we still don’t know when she will be coming out here for her trip. I hate that my […]

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Sadness sadness sadness….my mom is sick. She started with a fever the other day so she made an immediate appointment to get tested for covid. Her test came back negative but while she was driving home she got really sick and felt like she was going to pass out. She had to pull over and […]

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3 days and a wake up until my mom and cousin Bee come to visit. They were recently added to the quarantine list. Meaning if they are coming from certain states they have to quarantine for 14 days. The kids were getting into it in the pool yet again. There was even blood shed. Nothing […]

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Not much to note today There is a series on Netflix I can’t wait to binge. Its about people with Autism and love. Its something I always wondered about with my oldest Ophion (my autism tour guide). He is so against it now but I don’t know if thats his age or what. Another thing […]

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165…I’ve figured it out

I’ve figured it out. The last couple weeks or so I’ve had all the signs that are typical for me, loss of interest, change in sleeping patterns, zoning out, irritability, suicidal thoughts, fatigue, feeling worthless etc. Then today it hit me full on. Depression is such a miserable bitch. I’ve already cried twice today and […]

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